Enigmatts stupid rants

might say most, commonplace observations, is false. Falsehood and be reduced to a receipt if it could, I am sure that receipt would be equal inattention neither enjoying the one, nor doing the other Upon the whole, remember that learning (I mean Greek and Roman learning)

through much thought and deliberation of concience mind and that of the unconcios, we are able to se what can and cannot happen in reality, since reality is everything that we perceice physicaly and mentaly, then this blows up a whole section for us to rip up so to speak. back to my original theory as it was. nonsensicla as it may be. andj ust for a bit of sparring practice, i do apologize if i have offended you with my previos comments.

i have devised a simple and enjoyable theory about somethings that make somesense to most. lets talk of matter of the heart. at first, i was happeir then anything to go out on a limb to try and make a relationship work, then over time i became a bit tired of the game that earlier relationships became for me and the girl i was with at the time. soon i became distant from the game of love, and didnt want anything to do with it. but it all became apparent that i was not ready to just give up on love just yet. for a woman of spectacular similarity to the one i had seen in a dream when i was fourteen had made herself visible by means of classroom interaction. myself not really wanting to go about flitting my idiotic flirting attempts made no effort what so ever to talk to her. i just as much assumed that she had a boyfriend and was perfectly content with the circle of friends that she had.

i later realised, only after a small error of judgment on my part, that i was in fact falling harder and faster for this woman then any other in the past, and that i was only able to watch in the background as my thoughts took over and i did things i wasnt ready to deal with the conciquence of. through varios deterrents by friends of hers and…eventualy the deans of the college and my own attempts i was able to over come my mind and dark thoughts and retake controll of myself, and had to rebuild the respect i had lost from the horrifying ordeal. though i must admit something here and now. that i have not escaped without scratch or scar.

now with a new interest in the midst, i fear the same might happen all over again, that i would betray the trust i have worked so hard to gain by acting on the feelings presented to her, though we have become friends, i must be careful in the ways that i aproach her.

my theory is this, like bacteria to anti bacteria if you will, repeated exposure over time to any deterrent can force the subject or subject matter for that matter to evolve or change direction to better itself. though when a new entity or person is introduced, the subject will have learned from previos experience and have grown in time as well to either accept or reject that person in tis own ways.

in retro spect…things are going to get….a little bit interesting in the following weeks. wouldnt you say?

yes i did go to l.a. and i do hate this font size. but wtf…might as well work with what i got right? anyways, as i was saying, when i was wsighned up with global one (they got tired of my happy go lucky attitude….there mean. like some people i know lol…im evil. ) but the experience was freaking awesome, i got to meet the lead singer of a well known band in la and we chatted for a bit. i found out that he has a day job as well…lucky him.

the train ride there was cool. there i am, 22, a man in my prime, riding the train, on my own, with no parental supervision. thaaaaaank……fuckin…….god.  i met a lot of intresting people in la. including an all too friendly crackhead. yes…thats right. a crack head. he just came right out and said it.

“hey im a crackhead! got any change on ya?” to this…i was stunned and said yes. hping that the coversation would be short and sweet and to the point. wich it was. wich scared the hell out of me, and struck me as thefunniest day in my life. so i gave him change and wished him luck on smoking all the crack in the city. yeah, thats what i thought as well.

other intresting aspects was the place i waited in till 2:00 in the after noon, amazing no? i called it in my own speacial little way, little asia. why? because everyshop in the area, had signs written in philipino, chinese, manderin, and a shiteload of others. wich i got to practicing on! well for the duration of my stay there anayways. well, thats all from me ya litle friends and friendness’s. peace!

we are all linked in one way or another, there is no denying this, while we strengthen some links to people, we may also weaken some of the other ones. friendship and enemy alike are links in this chain, the more friends we have, the stronger the chian and the harder the blow to our enemy, however, them ore enemys we have and thel ess friends we have as well, will weaken the chain, so that when the blow lands on target, the damage ins minimal.

this is also the truth with social situations and the way things are at vvc. were constantly striving to strengthen our chains by out performing or outdoing ourselves the first time and we spread ourselves too thin where were not wanted. but if in places were not wanted we do enough good, those enemy may become new friends, and so on and so forth.

now your probably wondering how the fuck i get philosophical every now and then, truth being because of what ive done and experienced in my life, and the friends and enemys alike ive made, ive come to know alot of things, improoving all the while in my own ways. the usual biology and that fun stuff. and also in my wealth of knlelge too. that and i just spent the last fortyfive minutes swinging a chain around and briusing my arms in the process, but im getting better!